We're at this stage in life where we reminisce too much of our near past, worry too much about our near future, are
too clueless about everything that can, will, may happen to us, think we know alot, think we don't know anything,
am confident about the wrong things, take pride in wasting time away, want too much but want to do too little.
Ohwell.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Sometimes
Sometimes I don't know what I'm doing, where I'm going, what I really want, and what I'll actually get. Feels like a soccer game where many people chase after the same ball, running like mad, just that there aren't any goal posts. Or rather I don't see any goal posts. But we just keep running, and chasing the ball in case we see the goal post anytime soon.
Sometimes I sit at the bus stop near my house and stare at the sky. Sometimes I forgot to board the bus. Sometimes I wonder if it's worth doing anything at all.
Sometimes, like today, I feel like there's got to be something better I can do with my life.
Life? I don't have a life.
No lah. I'm not stressed. Promos, so what? I won't die if I fail promos. You just have to sit still and think, and you'll realise there're a thousand worse scenarios than failing promos you can be in. Besides, even if I ace promos (won't hurt to dream for 2 minutes right), even if I ace A's (HEY SOUNDS CUTE. ACE A'S!), even if I get some degree that only people who mug like shit can get, and even if I come out to work and become damn successful, it doesn't really mean anything. Because that's not what I want.
And that's the problem you see. I don't know what I want.
Okay fine, other than the 7 kids, I don't know what I want.
Sometimes, like today, or yesterday, since it's already past 12midnight (OMG!!!!), I forgot what I wanted to say. You know, I really hate long sentences because they go on and on and by the time you read the last part of the sentence, you kind of forgot what the first part of the sentence says and if you don't believe me I can try it out right now because as you can see, this sentence is so long I bet you've already forgotten what I started the sentence with and if you think you know, you must be wrong because I'm always right since I'm right-handed and although you may also be right-handed, I'm definitely more right-handed than you because I've got two right hands now that's obviously a joke and anyway, can you understand my point of how irritating long sentences are?
That's why I hate long problem sums. I've a damn short memory span, for things that aren't important. (I'm implying that Maths is not important. Duh.)
Okay. I sound sad. So, bye bye. I'll blog again when I'm happier. :(
12:03:00 AM because I say so
Sometimes I sit at the bus stop near my house and stare at the sky. Sometimes I forgot to board the bus. Sometimes I wonder if it's worth doing anything at all.
Sometimes, like today, I feel like there's got to be something better I can do with my life.
Life? I don't have a life.
No lah. I'm not stressed. Promos, so what? I won't die if I fail promos. You just have to sit still and think, and you'll realise there're a thousand worse scenarios than failing promos you can be in. Besides, even if I ace promos (won't hurt to dream for 2 minutes right), even if I ace A's (HEY SOUNDS CUTE. ACE A'S!), even if I get some degree that only people who mug like shit can get, and even if I come out to work and become damn successful, it doesn't really mean anything. Because that's not what I want.
And that's the problem you see. I don't know what I want.
Okay fine, other than the 7 kids, I don't know what I want.
Sometimes, like today, or yesterday, since it's already past 12midnight (OMG!!!!), I forgot what I wanted to say. You know, I really hate long sentences because they go on and on and by the time you read the last part of the sentence, you kind of forgot what the first part of the sentence says and if you don't believe me I can try it out right now because as you can see, this sentence is so long I bet you've already forgotten what I started the sentence with and if you think you know, you must be wrong because I'm always right since I'm right-handed and although you may also be right-handed, I'm definitely more right-handed than you because I've got two right hands now that's obviously a joke and anyway, can you understand my point of how irritating long sentences are?
That's why I hate long problem sums. I've a damn short memory span, for things that aren't important. (I'm implying that Maths is not important. Duh.)
Okay. I sound sad. So, bye bye. I'll blog again when I'm happier. :(
12:03:00 AM because I say so