We're at this stage in life where we reminisce too much of our near past, worry too much about our near future, are
too clueless about everything that can, will, may happen to us, think we know alot, think we don't know anything,
am confident about the wrong things, take pride in wasting time away, want too much but want to do too little.
Ohwell.
Friday, June 22, 2007
Motivation MIA
Final TWO days to common tests! I can't wait! :D
No, actually I can wait. Uh, no. Actually I can't wait. For enrichment week. HAHA.
So today, because I'm not strong and determined and I didn't leave home to study, I was defeated by the com, the bed, the piling DVDs to watch. Each time I look at that big square table with the big red ring file with all the notes filed in, I feel kind of guilty. And then Sandy runs along and shouts in my ear, "COME ON STUDY. DO YOU WANT TO GET SINGLE DIGITS?!"
But then.
10pm and because I slept too much during the afternoon nap, I can't get to sleep. Yah, can't get to sleep. Why, very big deal arh.
So maybe I should be spending this time to mug my lungs out.
But then.
Uh. 10pm already, lah. I think even saying the word Dynamics 20 times will make me sleepy. So, tomorrow then. :)
It's not that I'm procrastinating okay. Because the word "procrastinate" suggest that you'll eventually do it. HAHA. Nah. It's just, my primary school motto nagging at me. It says "Now or Never". And I choose Never. Which may not be that bad a thing afterall. Like that maybe I won't get so disappointed when I fail like shit. (Yea yea, Weeyang is going to start on the WHERE HAS YOUR POSITIVE MINDSET GONE?!)
Motivation MIA. Motivation to find motivation MIA. Motivation to find motivation to find motivation MIA. And so on.
I think I'll start feeling scared about the tests during enrichment week. It happened for O's too. I felt nervous about the exam during Christmas. And I can't remember what I did for Christmas last year already. What huh? Play Mahjong at Sokmui's house? Uhhhh, no that was two years ago.
See, I was so nervous that I can't even remember what I did. I'll go back lonehearter and read Christmas entry then.
Oh. We cooked dinner at Layjia's house on 24th and did we count down? Ahh, I really can't remember. Dec25th entry was about Club Penguin.
The house's asleep and I feel weird still being awake and online. Brother and sisters messaged me one after another to tell me they aren't coming home tonight and got me to write a note for my mother so that she doesn't think they're sleeping in the rooms and got breakfast for them. Lol.
Enjoy your last two days! :D
Milk, then bed! :D
9:53:00 PM because I say so
No, actually I can wait. Uh, no. Actually I can't wait. For enrichment week. HAHA.
So today, because I'm not strong and determined and I didn't leave home to study, I was defeated by the com, the bed, the piling DVDs to watch. Each time I look at that big square table with the big red ring file with all the notes filed in, I feel kind of guilty. And then Sandy runs along and shouts in my ear, "COME ON STUDY. DO YOU WANT TO GET SINGLE DIGITS?!"
But then.
10pm and because I slept too much during the afternoon nap, I can't get to sleep. Yah, can't get to sleep. Why, very big deal arh.
So maybe I should be spending this time to mug my lungs out.
But then.
Uh. 10pm already, lah. I think even saying the word Dynamics 20 times will make me sleepy. So, tomorrow then. :)
It's not that I'm procrastinating okay. Because the word "procrastinate" suggest that you'll eventually do it. HAHA. Nah. It's just, my primary school motto nagging at me. It says "Now or Never". And I choose Never. Which may not be that bad a thing afterall. Like that maybe I won't get so disappointed when I fail like shit. (Yea yea, Weeyang is going to start on the WHERE HAS YOUR POSITIVE MINDSET GONE?!)
Motivation MIA. Motivation to find motivation MIA. Motivation to find motivation to find motivation MIA. And so on.
I think I'll start feeling scared about the tests during enrichment week. It happened for O's too. I felt nervous about the exam during Christmas. And I can't remember what I did for Christmas last year already. What huh? Play Mahjong at Sokmui's house? Uhhhh, no that was two years ago.
See, I was so nervous that I can't even remember what I did. I'll go back lonehearter and read Christmas entry then.
Oh. We cooked dinner at Layjia's house on 24th and did we count down? Ahh, I really can't remember. Dec25th entry was about Club Penguin.
The house's asleep and I feel weird still being awake and online. Brother and sisters messaged me one after another to tell me they aren't coming home tonight and got me to write a note for my mother so that she doesn't think they're sleeping in the rooms and got breakfast for them. Lol.
Enjoy your last two days! :D
Milk, then bed! :D
9:53:00 PM because I say so