We're at this stage in life where we reminisce too much of our near past, worry too much about our near future, are
too clueless about everything that can, will, may happen to us, think we know alot, think we don't know anything,
am confident about the wrong things, take pride in wasting time away, want too much but want to do too little.
Ohwell.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Crossroads
It's always much easier to fall back on, I don't know, I don't know where to go, I can't decide etc. I'm such a chicken. I can't hold myself responsible for decisions (if I can make them?). There's more than one reason why I can't be swift and just decide on NUS, although I know NUS arts is more established than NTU's, and NUS is more renowned because it's like National University of Singapore, instead of NTU. Who knows what's Nanyang?
There's FASS. Which is one whole faculty and you get your modules through bidding. You decide what you want to major in. And hence. HENCE, I know I'll waver when I'm there, again. I'll think and wonder if I really want to do Econs, because there I'll get a second chance to change my decision. I may skip to something else, regret it, skip back, regret it, skip around, become Skippy peanut butter, and die a horrible death (sorry, can't think of way to complete sentence).
Another thing is, my eldest sister. She was from FASS, she started off with Econs. She majored in Econs and minored in statistics. According to her, it was very difficult and she had to drop to Sociology in year 3. I don't know why but the tone of her speaking insinuates I can't cope either. But it just is, I told you I hate my sisters, really.
On the other hand, NTU econs means NTU econs, and the furthest you can skip to is nowhere.
And, talking to people doesn't really help, since they tell me things I already know.
I guess what I can do now is read NUS and NTU brochures about the courses and modules they offer and highlight those that interest me. Then I'll count which school has more highlighted ink.
The next thing to do is probably convincing myself staying in halls will be a valuable experience and I should learn to take care of myself. MEH. I think I'll cry to myself on the third night or so and make noise about wanting to go home. I'll be homesick, for sure. Alternatively, I should just not stay in halls, right?
I hate it that I'm so indecisive. What's wrong with just sticking to one decision and making things work out?
Alright, as a change from my indecisive PAST, the next time you ask me which uni I'm headed, I'll tell you I haven't decided instead of I don't know. That sounds more like I've been thinking. :)
Alright, I've to watch my Bleach. :)
2:55:00 PM because I say so
There's FASS. Which is one whole faculty and you get your modules through bidding. You decide what you want to major in. And hence. HENCE, I know I'll waver when I'm there, again. I'll think and wonder if I really want to do Econs, because there I'll get a second chance to change my decision. I may skip to something else, regret it, skip back, regret it, skip around, become Skippy peanut butter, and die a horrible death (sorry, can't think of way to complete sentence).
Another thing is, my eldest sister. She was from FASS, she started off with Econs. She majored in Econs and minored in statistics. According to her, it was very difficult and she had to drop to Sociology in year 3. I don't know why but the tone of her speaking insinuates I can't cope either. But it just is, I told you I hate my sisters, really.
On the other hand, NTU econs means NTU econs, and the furthest you can skip to is nowhere.
And, talking to people doesn't really help, since they tell me things I already know.
I guess what I can do now is read NUS and NTU brochures about the courses and modules they offer and highlight those that interest me. Then I'll count which school has more highlighted ink.
The next thing to do is probably convincing myself staying in halls will be a valuable experience and I should learn to take care of myself. MEH. I think I'll cry to myself on the third night or so and make noise about wanting to go home. I'll be homesick, for sure. Alternatively, I should just not stay in halls, right?
I hate it that I'm so indecisive. What's wrong with just sticking to one decision and making things work out?
Alright, as a change from my indecisive PAST, the next time you ask me which uni I'm headed, I'll tell you I haven't decided instead of I don't know. That sounds more like I've been thinking. :)
Alright, I've to watch my Bleach. :)
2:55:00 PM because I say so