We're at this stage in life where we reminisce too much of our near past, worry too much about our near future, are
too clueless about everything that can, will, may happen to us, think we know alot, think we don't know anything,
am confident about the wrong things, take pride in wasting time away, want too much but want to do too little.
Ohwell.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Want Less
I think I'm a very lucky person. I nearly always got what I wanted, I think. I never really had to work hard for anything. While there are families out there struggling to hold themselves together, I've got a family I can't say is great, but at least we're still alive and healthy for now, and for the near future perhaps, and I'm grateful for that. I've got parents who love me, though they're typical as of other Asian parents and they don't show it.
When I wanted to get into Anderson Sec because I like the name, I got in. I probably didn't study at all during primary school. Who did? But I was lucky, or I was smart. I was a smart kid, I guess, I was good with Maths. I made great true friends, and I'm really grateful for that.
If there's one only one thing I can be proud of, I say it's my friends. I'm really proud of my friends. I'm proud of our friendships because it's not just superficiality. It's not the we're going out together because we are what-and-what-group and I don't really like him but ohwell, he's supposed to be part of us, he can tag along but I hate him anyway. It's nothing like that.
It's not about just hanging out together and have fun. I do that sometimes. But on top of that, there's trust. I like having people I have no issues confiding in them. Who will really listen and process what you say to give you something of what they think. It helps, and even if it doesn't, it makes you feel better anyway.
I'm not saying I only made friends in Anderson. Of course I made friends outside of Anderson as well. I've got some great friends in NJ as well. But I don't know, what holds together for Anderson friends is this other thick layer of sentimentality for the old school. Like, we can't seem to stop talking our days in Anderson. I don't know why is that so.
When I wanted to get into NJ, I got in. I can't say I put in alot of effort in O's, I probably did, but I don't remember feeling like I deserve a place there. But I got it anyway, the red tie and all. And although the school rules of wearing the tie only once a year didn't change just because I'm there, I'm still glad I got into NJ, to some extent, because of the people I met there and the fun I wouldn't have if I'm somewhere else. When I wanted to be an OGL, I got it, although sometimes I can be really really not high, at all.
When I said I wanted to work at Chevron House, I got a job there, although it was only for two days. But I was lucky it was only for two days because I hated the working environment there during the two days. I saw all the office politics and I loathed it. Then I wished I got my job at Starhub, and I got it, and it's a great deal to me because I like the colleagues I have to work with. I think they're the nicest people in the whole Starhub already.
All these while, the guys I liked happen to like me too. Not many, a few. I doubt I really met with any real challenges, or problems that couldn't be solved. To me, everything's easy easy and that there must be a way out. Which is why I think I've been really lucky, really. And I ought to feel very blessed indeed.
I can't say I got every single thing I ever wanted in my life. I wanted alot other things. Like I wanted the whole of Singapore to be air-conditioned. I wanted to be only 1m away from Jay. I wanted alot of things, but I'm very glad with what I have now. I just realised how lucky I really am. I just realised we'll all be happy if we want fewer things, because we'll be more contented if we want less.
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I met up with some friends today. Like Happy Botak AARON and Happy Hair HANHUI in the afternoon, and ABT at night. I had fried fish the whole day (Manhattan Fish for lunch + Fish and Co for dinner) and my sore throat's back. :( Plus all the screaming for JIA HUAAAAA. AHA. :)
Happy Botak deleted the freaky photos he took of himself. D: He's still a sad botak because he just booked in 4 hours ago. So tell him a joke when you're free, starting with Hi Happy Botak. I'm sure he'll cheer up. Happy Botak is BUD! Be a Happy Botak! :D
ABT photos at Fish and Co. another time! :D :D
12am! Good night. :)
11:25:00 PM because I say so
When I wanted to get into Anderson Sec because I like the name, I got in. I probably didn't study at all during primary school. Who did? But I was lucky, or I was smart. I was a smart kid, I guess, I was good with Maths. I made great true friends, and I'm really grateful for that.
If there's one only one thing I can be proud of, I say it's my friends. I'm really proud of my friends. I'm proud of our friendships because it's not just superficiality. It's not the we're going out together because we are what-and-what-group and I don't really like him but ohwell, he's supposed to be part of us, he can tag along but I hate him anyway. It's nothing like that.
It's not about just hanging out together and have fun. I do that sometimes. But on top of that, there's trust. I like having people I have no issues confiding in them. Who will really listen and process what you say to give you something of what they think. It helps, and even if it doesn't, it makes you feel better anyway.
I'm not saying I only made friends in Anderson. Of course I made friends outside of Anderson as well. I've got some great friends in NJ as well. But I don't know, what holds together for Anderson friends is this other thick layer of sentimentality for the old school. Like, we can't seem to stop talking our days in Anderson. I don't know why is that so.
When I wanted to get into NJ, I got in. I can't say I put in alot of effort in O's, I probably did, but I don't remember feeling like I deserve a place there. But I got it anyway, the red tie and all. And although the school rules of wearing the tie only once a year didn't change just because I'm there, I'm still glad I got into NJ, to some extent, because of the people I met there and the fun I wouldn't have if I'm somewhere else. When I wanted to be an OGL, I got it, although sometimes I can be really really not high, at all.
When I said I wanted to work at Chevron House, I got a job there, although it was only for two days. But I was lucky it was only for two days because I hated the working environment there during the two days. I saw all the office politics and I loathed it. Then I wished I got my job at Starhub, and I got it, and it's a great deal to me because I like the colleagues I have to work with. I think they're the nicest people in the whole Starhub already.
All these while, the guys I liked happen to like me too. Not many, a few. I doubt I really met with any real challenges, or problems that couldn't be solved. To me, everything's easy easy and that there must be a way out. Which is why I think I've been really lucky, really. And I ought to feel very blessed indeed.
I can't say I got every single thing I ever wanted in my life. I wanted alot other things. Like I wanted the whole of Singapore to be air-conditioned. I wanted to be only 1m away from Jay. I wanted alot of things, but I'm very glad with what I have now. I just realised how lucky I really am. I just realised we'll all be happy if we want fewer things, because we'll be more contented if we want less.
*
I met up with some friends today. Like Happy Botak AARON and Happy Hair HANHUI in the afternoon, and ABT at night. I had fried fish the whole day (Manhattan Fish for lunch + Fish and Co for dinner) and my sore throat's back. :( Plus all the screaming for JIA HUAAAAA. AHA. :)
Happy Botak deleted the freaky photos he took of himself. D: He's still a sad botak because he just booked in 4 hours ago. So tell him a joke when you're free, starting with Hi Happy Botak. I'm sure he'll cheer up. Happy Botak is BUD! Be a Happy Botak! :D
ABT photos at Fish and Co. another time! :D :D
12am! Good night. :)
11:25:00 PM because I say so