Oh.
What's gone and what's past help
Should be past grief.
William Shakespeare, The Winter's Tale. Act III, scene ii

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I'm scared frightened terrified about Results Day, which in case you don't already know, is confirmed this coming Friday, 6th March and ohmytian. I'm REALLY scared.

I'm scared of a thousand other stuffs too although they all revolve around a single matter. No, not A's. Nothing as frightening as that.

Oh. My. God. I think I won't be able to sleep for the rest of this week.

It's like, the tears are at the edge of the eyes ready to come out. And I can cry now just thinking about what happens on that day. And No, I don't want to get them back. I'll rather wait another 8years more.

Alright, I'll go my own little corner and frighten myself further. I'll stop scaring you.

Crap! How can I read the books I finally got from the library like that! D:

6:06:00 PM because I say so

Jogging at YCK, or if it rains, workout at YCK gym tomorrow, who's on? I feel super unhealthy.

7pm at YCK, sms me asap. Dinner/supper after that perhaps, I guess. PRISCILLA WE MUST EXERCISE SELF DISCIPLINE.

I saw the funniest thing this week on MRT this morning. An auntie was trying to alight at Toa Payoh, and she doesn't know how to say EXCUSE ME. She went BEEP BEEP BEEEEEEEEEEEP! at the other passengers, so they'll realise she wants to pass. It was omgish funny. I laughed out pretty loud, because it was really funny. What, BEEP?!!? The scary thing is no other passengers on board laughed, which led me to believe work has turned all of them into humourless robots. BEEP?! NOT FUNNY MEH YOU TELL ME.

Thinking about it makes me laugh so hard I can't even continue typing. BEEP!

8:39:00 PM because I say so

Hi! It's a bright and cheery Wednesday and I'm here to blog an EE! Don't you just misssss EEs? For dumb senile people like you are, I guess I've to be nice and remind you what's an EE again. EE stands for Entry Exchange, which is something really cute Priscilla and I do. We'll think of a common title and we'll blog our seperate entries so you people can read not one but TWO entries on the same topic! That's really great of us don't you think!

So the title for our EE today is 15 TTMMH and 10 TTMMU! It actually means 15 Things That Make Me Happy and 10 Things That Make Me Unhappy! But that's too long for a title so we cut it down to that. Don't you think TTMMU sounds really funny? Alright, I don't even know how that's supposed to sound, but I'm talking so much here and I haven't even gone into topic.

By the way, you're reading this entry today because I just paid $44 to see the doctor AGAIN (third time this month!) because horrible tonsillitis is back and stronger. Alright, I'm much better now, but I'm home resting although I want to be at work because I've to work to reinstate my pocket that's burning because of my ridiculous medical bills. D:

Anyway, this is a happy entry because it's a long-awaited (who's waiting?) EE! So let's start tomorrow, oops, I mean NOW! :D



15 TTMMH

1. Jay makes me happy! Oh but Jay isn't a thing. Hmmm. Anything related to Jay makes me happy! Like, reading an interview with him on the magazine makes me happy. Watching his MVs make me happy. Seeing him on TV makes me really happy. When friends get me Jay merchandise from Taiwen I get really really happy. Watching his movies make me delirious, and listening to his songs makes me high! :D :D

2. I suppose point number 1 is what everyone knows. And being the ever so creative and innovative self, I should talk about things that you don't already know. So I'll try to be more unexpected in the points to come! The 2nd thing that makes me happy is... getting nice dreams. I like dreaming about pretty looking stuff. Like the other day I dreamt of a handsome scene of a lone tree in a large grey plateau. It's really beautiful and I remember waking up feeling happy.

3. Funny friends make me happy! Like Hanhui and Aaron makes me happy. gillian and chunying makes me happy. Priscilla and (Sokmui) makes me happy. (Sokmui is in brackets because I don't know if killers like to be known as funny. They aren't funny when it comes to killing, you know...) Melissa makes me happy, with her tribal dances! So does Bugs with her incessant talking-at-helicopter-speeds!

4. Having time to myself makes me happy. I like having time alone to make some birthday cards, watch the ice cream man downstairs ring the bell, pack my things over and over again, read etc. I think having time to reorganise myself makes me happy because I like being organised. :)

5. Talking about the past makes me happy, most of the times. Like the countless times when friends and I gather and talk and talk about days in secondary school life, or even in NJ. Talking about the funny teachers, funny incidences that happened in class. It makes me happy thinking I had a fun life. Or maybe my life now isn't as bad as I think it is. Because someday I may be looking back and envying my life now, you never know.

6. Empty MRT trains make me HAPPY. Like the 7.25am Bishan train. Shh don't tell anyone about the empty 7.25am Bishan train. I'm so afraid one day it won't be empty anymore because everyone will take the 7.25am Bishan train.

7. Strangers smiling at me makes me happy. Okay that sounds weird. I don't mean weird strangers. I mean like maybe the old lady whom I gave up my seat for. She smiles and says thanks and that makes me feel appreciated, hence happy.

8. Sleeping in on weekends make me happy too! Although I always end up waking at 9am or earlier, but sleeping knowing that you don't necessarily have to wake up now is a great feeling, don't you think?

9. Food makes me happy. I like tiramisu, and salmon sushi, and Thai Express soft-shell crab curry rice, and Mos Burger Kakiage Rice Burger, and takopachi, and FRIED MUSHROOMS, and sweet watermelons, and Swensen's Chocolate Crunch, and B&J's Chunky Monkey, and Popeye's mashed potato, and CHOCOLATES, and tons of others. Which reminds me, tonsilitis means Porridge Days All Over Again. D: D:

10. Cards make me happy. Handmade cards especially! Handwritten postcards make me happy too, especially those full of words and it'll take me awhile to read it. My birthday's on 28 April, make me a card okay! :D

11. Going to the beach makes me happy. I won't mind the sun if I'm out there really to enjoy and sun and play in the sand and sea. I really want an outing out there sometime soon. Probably with a whole big group of friends. I can't remember the last time I played Captain's Ball already, I really like playing Captain's Ball!

12. Bathing makes me happy because I feel clean after that. I can't stand it when I haven't bathed for a day. I'll feel really sticky and I want to just dip myself in water and don't come out.

13. Good reads make me happy too because I like stories and I like reading things that keep me interested. Which reminds me, I haven't gone to the library in the longest of times. I must do it this weekend! Or borrow books from Sokmui. By the way, SOKMUI I can't even view your entries at your blog. I've to read it from the Page Source. And I only just read your blog today, so no, I didn't read the entry you deleted. ._.

14. I think riding in the cable car will make me happy, but I never tried it before. Because, I don't know, it's much cheaper to go into Sentosa via the $3 monorail. I'll try it someday, I guess.

15. Old stuff makes me happy! Like old trains that go into Malaysia, or old telephones, vintage television sets, vintage TOY ROBOTS ohmytian they're so cute! I'm not really vintagy, I don't know, they just make me happy.

Ohno! I'm done with the 15 things that make me happy? It's the 10 things that make me unhappy now! D:

10 TTMMU

1. I HATE FALLING SICK. Especially sore throats/coughs. Because that means I can't eat tiramisu, and salmon sushi, and Thai Express soft-shell crab curry rice, and Mos Burger Kakiage Rice Burger, and takopachi, and FRIED MUSHROOMS, and sweet watermelons, and Swensen's Chocolate Crunch, and B&J's Chunky Monkey, and Popeye's mashed potato, and CHOCOLATES, and tons others! D:

2. I hate long queues. I get impatient and will stop queuing unless my life depends on whatever I'm queuing for.

3. Beansprouts make me unhappy. Alot of beansprouts in a plate of beehoon makes me VERY unhappy because I've to pick out the beansprouts to eat the beehoon.

4. The monitor screen turning pink makes me unhappy too.

5. Breaking things makes me unhappy. Which is why I don't really like fragile stuff. I broke a glass bottle that I use to keep my movie stubs once and I cut myself trying to pick up the broken pieces. Plus, I've nowhere to keep my movie stubs after that. ._. (I bought another glass bottle in the end, so stubborn huh.)

6. Dogs that licks me makes me unhappy.

7. Toilets that flush on their own WHILE you're using it makes me unhappy. They scare you.

8. PORRIDGE DAYS ARE DEPRESSING. D: D: D:

9. Annoying people who are so full of themselves make me unhappy as well. Those who think they know everything, I can't stand it. And egoistic people, narcissistic or not.

10. Hunger makes me unhappy. And I'm hungry nowwwwwww.

Priscilla is done just when I'm done! Alright, time to post my exciting EE! You can read Priscilla's entry here! :D :D :D

Byebye!

11:43:00 AM because I say so

Some photos tell stories.

I want to go round Singapore (because that's the furthest I can go) and take pictures that tell stories. I like telling stories, but I hate words.

I'm in the worst state I can be, lousy mood, lousy throat, lousy appetite, it's a lousy Monday. I lost my voice AGAIN. It's annoying, but comforting to know I don't have to talk when I don't want to, just because I lost my voice.

I think I'm such a hater. I hate alot of things. I hate hating things. I hate it that I'm a hater, but I still hate things anyway. Like I hate it that when I tell you something, you've to go all personal and take it upon yourself, and tell me what you think/what you experienced even when I didn't ask for it. HUH AARON HUH. Oh, I forgot he won't see this. He's in camp. Aw, be a happy botak!

I can't be bothered with some people because I think they just aren't worth the effort. I probably take friends too seriously, but my dad told me the other day it's not worth making a whole legion of friends when at the end of the day you don't know who is it you can trust. I thought he was pretty random, until my mum told me it's over some money matters between him and his uncle-gang of 150 members. Ha.

I didn't quite say anything to answer my dad because he wasn't really looking for a reply from me. He was just making a comment. But then he went on telling me he thinks I'll become like him, with too many people flooding his life until he can't tell if he's living for himself or is he there to be taken for granted for. I didn't know what to say so I just sat there staring at him. And stare, and stare. Then he laughed and walked away. ._.

I think my dad is a nice guy. He's the type that knows what to say to strangers, and can make friends with stallholders in markets and they'll like him enough to charge him really cheap. And I believe he has some really true friends too, those that I see and actually know who they are. He's a great friend who lives in Yishun and my parents call him Gao Ni, and he's a super nice uncle who's good with all sorts of things like fixing the door, or the lights, or a hole in the wall. So he's always a phone call away, and I'll always see him when our door knob drops out, or the lights dropped when my mum was trying to fix it back after washing.

I always hear my dad talking on phone with his friends, and although I never really know which friend he is talking to this time, I know those friends on the line with him are that few that I see often.

Why did I start talking about this?

You must be wondering why I'm always on the topic of friends and trust these days. I wish I can tell you, but I guess I can't. I don't know, maybe I'm too afraid of offending people, maybe I'm too afraid of the consequences.

But if I don't make an effort to keep up with you, or seem to have forgotten you exist, it probably means I don't want that legion of friends my dad talked about, that I don't think you're worth being a friend. OR, it may mean I'm busy.

I know how people talked about a larger social circle etc and how it's going to help you in your working adult life etc, but I don't know, I think I'll be a good kid and listen to my dad. I think he's unhappy being like that, and just as coincidentally, I'm unhappy being like that as well. I really don't like how sharing (not food, as in thoughts? And stuff) becomes a duty instead of a voluntary thing. Like the if you don't tell me your secret, we aren't friends kind of thing. Like what, fuck off lah.

It's true you talk about different things to different friends. I never denied that. Like it'll be weird if I discuss my latest crush with Priscilla. It's just weird. Just as it's weird if I ask Hanhui out for a picnic. I'll probably do a picnic with Ann, discuss my latest crush with Hanhui and talk about our futures with Priscilla. It just works that way, I don't know why.

Another thing is, the reason why I don't trust you may not necessarily be because I know you've said things you shouldn't about me. It may be because you've said things you shouldn't about OTHERS to me, and still act all chummy and nice to him/her upfront. I find that really sickening. They won't know what things you've said behind their backs, but I do. Can you at least be consistent in front of me?

Hence you can't blame me for thinking while you're chummy and nice to me upfront, you may be saying all the things you shouldn't behind. It's sickening to think I'm so petty, but I just am, and I can't help it that I draw such obvious conclusions.

I'm not really talking about a single person. If I think hard enough, which I try not to, I've met quite several people like that. What's not that bad is I aren't really close to them now. I've probably only seen one of them in the last 3 months.

I don't know what else to say. I guess if you think I'm talking about you, that means something already. But I think I still have a legion of great friends leh. ._. Ogay nevermind.

Long unintended entry!

8:49:00 PM because I say so

I think I'm a very lucky person. I nearly always got what I wanted, I think. I never really had to work hard for anything. While there are families out there struggling to hold themselves together, I've got a family I can't say is great, but at least we're still alive and healthy for now, and for the near future perhaps, and I'm grateful for that. I've got parents who love me, though they're typical as of other Asian parents and they don't show it.

When I wanted to get into Anderson Sec because I like the name, I got in. I probably didn't study at all during primary school. Who did? But I was lucky, or I was smart. I was a smart kid, I guess, I was good with Maths. I made great true friends, and I'm really grateful for that.

If there's one only one thing I can be proud of, I say it's my friends. I'm really proud of my friends. I'm proud of our friendships because it's not just superficiality. It's not the we're going out together because we are what-and-what-group and I don't really like him but ohwell, he's supposed to be part of us, he can tag along but I hate him anyway. It's nothing like that.

It's not about just hanging out together and have fun. I do that sometimes. But on top of that, there's trust. I like having people I have no issues confiding in them. Who will really listen and process what you say to give you something of what they think. It helps, and even if it doesn't, it makes you feel better anyway.

I'm not saying I only made friends in Anderson. Of course I made friends outside of Anderson as well. I've got some great friends in NJ as well. But I don't know, what holds together for Anderson friends is this other thick layer of sentimentality for the old school. Like, we can't seem to stop talking our days in Anderson. I don't know why is that so.

When I wanted to get into NJ, I got in. I can't say I put in alot of effort in O's, I probably did, but I don't remember feeling like I deserve a place there. But I got it anyway, the red tie and all. And although the school rules of wearing the tie only once a year didn't change just because I'm there, I'm still glad I got into NJ, to some extent, because of the people I met there and the fun I wouldn't have if I'm somewhere else. When I wanted to be an OGL, I got it, although sometimes I can be really really not high, at all.

When I said I wanted to work at Chevron House, I got a job there, although it was only for two days. But I was lucky it was only for two days because I hated the working environment there during the two days. I saw all the office politics and I loathed it. Then I wished I got my job at Starhub, and I got it, and it's a great deal to me because I like the colleagues I have to work with. I think they're the nicest people in the whole Starhub already.

All these while, the guys I liked happen to like me too. Not many, a few. I doubt I really met with any real challenges, or problems that couldn't be solved. To me, everything's easy easy and that there must be a way out. Which is why I think I've been really lucky, really. And I ought to feel very blessed indeed.

I can't say I got every single thing I ever wanted in my life. I wanted alot other things. Like I wanted the whole of Singapore to be air-conditioned. I wanted to be only 1m away from Jay. I wanted alot of things, but I'm very glad with what I have now. I just realised how lucky I really am. I just realised we'll all be happy if we want fewer things, because we'll be more contented if we want less.

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I met up with some friends today. Like Happy Botak AARON and Happy Hair HANHUI in the afternoon, and ABT at night. I had fried fish the whole day (Manhattan Fish for lunch + Fish and Co for dinner) and my sore throat's back. :( Plus all the screaming for JIA HUAAAAA. AHA. :)






Happy Botak deleted the freaky photos he took of himself. D: He's still a sad botak because he just booked in 4 hours ago. So tell him a joke when you're free, starting with Hi Happy Botak. I'm sure he'll cheer up. Happy Botak is BUD! Be a Happy Botak! :D

ABT photos at Fish and Co. another time! :D :D

12am! Good night. :)

11:25:00 PM because I say so

Results. Are. Going. To. Be. Out. Really. Soon. It's. Either. This. Coming. Week. Or. The. Next. And. I. Think. It's. This. Coming. Week. Because. Gillian's. Friend. Told. Her. Her. Teacher. Went. To. Attend. A. Meeting. About. The. Release. Of. Results. And. The. Teacher. Said. It'll. Be. Really. Soon. And. HCI. Have. Already. Started. Packing. Goodies. Bags. For. The. J3s. Which. Is. Us. If. You. Haven't. Realised. We. Are. J3s. Who'll. Be. Collecting. Our. Results. Really. Really. Really. Soon. It's. So. Soon. I. Can. Feel. Its. Arm. Reaching. For. Me. Behind. My Back. And. I. Want. To. Run. To. A. Really. Far. Place. Because. I. Don't. Really. Want. To. Know. My. Results. Because. All. Those. Past. Feelings. Of. Right-After-Exams. Are. Coming. Back. To. Haunt. Me. And. I'm. Not. At. All. Confident. Yes. Not. At. All. And. When. You're. Going. To. Collect. Your. Results. Yet. What. You. Feel. Is. Fear. Instead. Of. Excitement. It's. Really. Scary.

I. Hope. I. Didn't. Scare. You. Further. You. Look. Like. You're. Going. To. Collapse. Of. Fear.

Oh. My. Tian.

9:03:00 AM because I say so

It's 12.53am, it's a Saturday, I don't have work later, I feel sleepy and I don't feel like sleeping. I don't know why.

I feel like at 18, we should all be really enjoying ourselves but I don't know what exactly is my definition of enjoyment. Are late nights out with friends my idea of enjoyment? I don't think so. As much as I like being around people, I like being alone. I'm so ironic I feel like I'm overflowing with iron instead of what the doctor insists (he says I lack iron in my blood). Anyway, I don't know if I'm handling my life well. Getting a job that I don't mind, I mean, I like my job, I'm fine with it, but doesn't it always end up in a line of questions circling your mind, what if I'm not actually working now? Will I better spend my time elsewhere?

I don't know, but whatever I do, I feel like I should be doing something else. Like if I'm out with friends, I feel like I should be home spending more time alone, or with my family, watching my overdued recorded Spongebob episodes (I haven't watched last Saturday's you know, and it's this Saturday already), making cheesecakes, make some cards... Or go to the library to get a book before they freeze my account on 1st April due to $6.15 outstanding fines. Or clear my $6.15 library fines for that matter. Speaking of which, when was the last time I found time to read a good novel?

But, when I'm home, resting, when I'm not out with friends, I feel like I should be doing something more than just spending time on the computer, facebooking, blogging, blog-reading, jaying, watching videos. I feel like I should be out there, somewhere, doing something that makes me and people around me laugh.

I never seem to be happy with my position. It's very weird.

Like, when I'm watching a movie, I wish I'm eating Swensen's ice cream. When I'm eating Swensen's ice cream, I wish I'm singing KTV. When I'm at the KTV, I wish I'm home being my zai nu. When I'm home being zai nu, I wish I'm playing bridge with friends. When I'm playing bridge with friends, I wish I'm playing badminton... and the list never ends. I feel like I'm always doing what I felt like doing before, at a time when I least feel like doing it.

I don't know, what are we supposed to be doing this period of time, before results are out (which I believe is going to be out really soon, and I forgot I should be afraid of it). Working? Staying home? Learning driving?

I'm hungry.

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On a completely different note, I think it's extremely difficult to meet somebody who has a real similar frequency as you. Like, feeling what you're feeling at the moment, similar reactions, similar mindsets, or even similar circle of friends and similar family backgrounds. I probably met someone like that before, a long time back. Alright maybe not.

It's 1.12am. My head's spinning, I must get some sleep.

Good night.

12:53:00 AM because I say so

LOL you want to know something funny! This is really really funny!

My eyecandy at work held the door for me just now when I was leaving my workplace and I was happy so I couldn't stop smiling, and I forgot to thank him!

You know what's funnier!

My eyecandy is 40 years older than me!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay no, he's 9 years older than me, and I think none of my friends will think he's eyecandy material. But ohwell, I always know I've unique taste.

But I couldn't stop laughing after that because I can't believe I smiled to myself like an idiot and lost my usual calm cool cucumber composure and at least say thanks lah! Haiyo. Now my eyecandy that's 9 years older must think I'm rude. D:

Alright, no, he's 40 years older. Or maybe not. LOL.

Nope! He's not married, or he will fall under the Uncles-or-Uncles-Going-to-Be category which spells carrying durians in red plastic bags at MRT stations and/or lots of frowns all day long so he won't be my eyecandy anymore. Alright he's 9 years older... maybe not!

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WHY AM I STILL SO HIGH EVEN WHEN I ONLY DRANK HALF A CUP OF HL MILK TONIGHT?!!

And the weather is back to its horrible self! Xmas wish 1994 is rain tomorrow again please! Anyway, I didn't become a thousand dollars richer today nor did I felt like I had more than enough sleep! So wishes 1992 and 1993 didn't come true at all! SEE I knew it! Christmas wishes don't come true! But I still wish that it'll rain tomorrow! Don't disappoint me again Santa! Ohmygod! This whole paragraph has 10 exclaimation marks altogether! Amazing isn't it!

Okay byebye.

10:02:00 PM because I say so

It came true! Ohyes it rained today! GLORIOUS RAIN! AND THE WIND YES THE WIND.

So Christmas wishes do come true!

For my 1992 Xmas wish, I wish that I'm a millionaire! ._. Okay we shouldn't be greedy. Uh. A thosandaire then. LOL thousandaire sounds really funny. Haha!

Alright, for my 1992 Xmas wish, I wish that I'll find time to get my grey highlights/extensions, without missing any dates with long time never see you friends.

For my 1993 Xmas wish, I hope tonight will be secretly double the hours so I get double the very little sleep I can get later. :D Yes, I hope the little black men (were they little?) from Momo will not steal our time away while we're asleep tonight but instead return us the stolen time!

Alright! What's wrong with me! I'm hyperventilating! Oh! It's the milk!

Good night!

10:41:00 PM because I say so

You know when I'm blogging a second post of the day it's either because I'm bored or because what I'm going to blog about is something HUGE and affects me alot/makes me angry/makes me emo etc.

I'm very very very very very very very very very annoyed at something.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH THE WEATHER THESE DAYS.

WHY. IS. IT. SO. KOKO. CRUNCH. HOT.

I can't stand it really. I can stay totally still at home in the afternoon, like totally still, breathe in breathe out, and still perspire right after I bathe. I can set the air-con at 20degrees celsius and still wake up in the middle of the night feeling like someone just poured hot water on me. ._. Okay that's exaggerated, but you get my point.

And what's wrong with Sokmui? Must be because of her talking whole day and night about no sun no sun no sun THAT'S WHY NOW SO MUCH SUN LAH! D: Sokmui you can have all the sun but don't kill the rain with your latest killer tactics please! D:

Okay I'm done. My Christmas wish is that it rains tomorrow. Nevermind Christmas isn't exactly uh near. I'm making up for Xmas 1991, I didn't make a wish that year ogay. :)

So hope it rains tomorrow! :D

10:11:00 PM because I say so

The last time I posted photos was gasp! A really long time ago! If you don't count the photo of my adorable antibiotic because that's ONE photo and not really photoS. So I guess I should post some pictures, somehow. ._.

A dead long time ago, I went to Sentosa to watch the flowers that the TV kept talking about. It's nothing as nice as what they say lor. The flowers were disappointing, they were mainly repeated, and the crowd is so overwhelming you'll take forever if you want to queue to take pictures with the flower bench, or the flower heart shaped, or etc.

Anyway, I went there with Weilong to celebrate Chinese New Year cum Singlehood Wan Sui. Sadly, I realised we didn't take any photos together because the only photos I took was of the flowers, and of the Sakae lunch which he treated to celebrate Chinese New Year cum Singlehood Wan Sui.

Some photos taken that day.



There's a new can-I-call-it-a-shop place at Vivo that's huge. It's a National Geographic uh-shop that National Geographicy stuff. That's a pair of shining globes I found there. I remember they aren't as expensive as they look, I think.



Photographs of frogs. I was :O that frogs aren't just green. There are purple frogs can you believe it!



Cute furry penguins. (:



The first flowers we saw! I think the hot pink flowers look really plastic.



Imbiah station was open that day. It's IMBIAH, NOT IMBAH. Weilong kept making that joke, I was so annoyed.



The lovers' bench I was saying. There's a queue if you want to take photos there. We didn't queue up because like me, he can't stand the sun and in any case, we aren't lovers and we both shudder at that thought.



Swans made of white little flowers SO CUTE. And yes! I've no idea what's the guy on the right doing either, he's probably smelling the flowers? LOL I don't know!



A very small waterfall.

Oh well, when we finally reached a little civilisation called Air-con, I was about to do Yamaha cheers.



Doesn't everything look so cool and pretty from inside an air-con place!



The sakae we went to wasn't the usual one with conveyor belts full of sushi sitting on it running round you. It's teppanyaki style so we didn't really know how to order so we ended up with alot, alot of food. This one here is udon in tofu skin and it looked really nice and cute in the picture but we felt so cheated because the serving was small and the soup was tasteless. D:



Salmon sashimi cheers me up though!

There were alot others and I'm really lazy to post pictures of them because all these photos make me hungry and I haven't eaten lunch and the good thing is tonsillitis are much better today! Yay!

Anyway, THANK YOU WEILONG for that wonderful lunch. I know it cost alot but TOO BAD EHHEY.

When we finally concluded that the whole flowers thing was a hoax and there are so few flowers to see, we decided to do something more constructive.



Like skyriding.



The ride up. Weilong wanted really badly to try the luge back down. See that black thing hanging from the seats? You can choose to take the skyride back, or you take the luge back. Which is like sitting in that black thing and sliding your way down some winding path. I thought it was really stupid and I don't want to wear the helmets that others wore in that sweating heat. So I was adamant and he had no choice.



Sentosa looks like any other stupid jungle from up there.



Skyriding back.





Then we left Sentosa when it suddenly looked like it was going to rain. Weilong left to meet his mother and I'm left stranded because I'm meeting a group of friends later for dinner.



That's about the only successful group photo where we got everyone's face and the photo is not blur.

We had Carl's Junior for dinner and then we wasted time away at Ben and Jerry's talking nonsense.

On an entirely random note, I saw this picture while looking for the one above and take a look!



I like my red piano bag alot. But I'm starting to believe it's really quite expensive and I should have tried sewing it myself, fail, then buy it. Then I'll be more convinced it's that worth it.

So, that was one day.

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On another one random day, I FINALLY MET UP WITH GILLIAN AND CHUNYING to fulfill our age old KBOX date.



Us, with classic faceless yay pose.



That's Sandy with gillian's fedora. :D



gillian was high because she jumped onto the sofa!



:D :D :D



We have upside-down mics the way Jielun does in An Hao MV! :D



Sometimes I wonder how will it be like if I've never made these two impossibly crazy friends. Alright, they aren't crazy on their own, actually I aren't crazy on my own either. But we go crazilly happy together. Aw, ogay I'm getting sentimental. -shys



Bird nest's hair! :D

After that, I was meeting ABT for our annual Lau Yu Sheng huat ah so friends of ABT came along as well! :)



We had alot of people, what, 15? So we had to join two big round tables. And the furthest person away from me was so, far.



The only decent photo I have of the yusheng because it was so far. ._.



Our dinner yum! :D



I love my ABT! :D Ohno, thinking about it makes me smile to myself, especially Fiona's rendition of Jeremy and his Awesome Sports day! HAHAHAHA.



Yongkiat and his successful jump shot! :D



Jenna and Jaslyn took a picture together... and suddenly Yongyuan and Spiky were being spastic selves!



Fiona and non-ABT Zhiwei and Tracie! Omg they are so funny! They do visa jiggles out of nowhere can! -hides



And the Sun Wukong pose! :D

So, that was another day.

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OKAY I'm boycotting posting photos because it makes me hungry. D:

For photos of my recent class gathering at Yixin's house, you can read my class blog here.

Just a final photo before I go!



I made these yesterday out of the hotcakes I couldn't finish to prove that the hotcakes are not sad that I can't finish them! Hahahaha! So cute right! :D

Alright, byebye, I'm so hungry. D:

12:45:00 PM because I say so

For Valentine's Day this year, I want lozenges, honey liang teh and anything to make the horrible tonsillitis (it's nothing as cute as it sounds!) go away.

Because of T, I can't:
1. Eat proper. Today was the first day since Tuesday I had something that doesn't start with a P and ends with orridge. Still, hotcakes with minimal butter and close to no honey, and I can't even finish that.
2. Swallow anything for that matter without cursing.
3. What am I saying? I can't even curse.

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Of family, I'm always saying I want to spend more time with my family, which doesn't seem to be happening because I'm working 830am-6pm daily on weekdays, and my weekends are packed with dates with friends. But then again, even if I'm home everyday (like the past four days), the only family member I actually spend more time with is my mother, because my father will be at work and my siblings all have their own stuff to do, work or study. At night they're either sleeping or they aren't home when I go to bed or this or that. I can live with my sister in the same house and not say anything to her for weeks. Oh well.

Sometimes I hear about my siblings complaining about my parents and I wonder why they just can't get along. Sometimes I get annoyed at my parents, and it scares me that I may one day become like my siblings, secretly hating my parents, I don't want to be like that. And it makes me wonder if I got annoyed because of me, because of my parents, or because I'm led to do so by my siblings. It's confusing.

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Of friends, I think trust is an amazing thing. It's not something that comes by and by as and when you want it. I may be friends with you for 10 years, but it doesn't mean that I've that trust in you. Still, I rather it be that way, that time is used as a measure of trust. Because so often I've thought I could trust someone when I couldn't.

The saddest thing is when he/she doesn't know it. Like, sometimes when I tell you something, it's understood that I don't want you to go round telling everybody. You probably think I won't know, I hope I won't know you went round telling people too. But someday someone will mention it, have you considered what I'll think?

When that does happen, I don't usually pursue it. Like I won't go back to you and ask you why did you tell so-and-so what-and-what, because I didn't say you can't tell so-and-so what-and-what, although it's pretty understood that way. But, I'll still remember it and I'll guard against that person in future. Except that I forget about guarding sometimes. And the same thing repeats, and repeats, and repeats.

You know, some people ask purely because they are curious, or they are concerned, or they want to talk to you, purely. But some people ask so you'll become the topic they can talk about to some other person they call a friend. That's one thing I can't stand, talking behind somebody else's back. I can't say I don't do it entirely. I'm always talking about others to Priscilla, we exchange things we know about people each other haven't seen in a long while. That's rather different, I guess.

Anyway, all I want to say is, I believe there are some people who are worth being best friends forever because they are true and so they're love. Then there are those who are friends only when they need friends, and there are those who you can't really call friends at all.

I feel sorry for myself that I've come to realise that only today. I'm at a stage where I feel like ditching friends, or I should say ditching people I've been calling friends but I don't really feel friendly.

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Of love and such, I think if you're lucky enough to find someone who knows you really well, AND here's the important bit, understands, AND feels the same as well, if you can ever find someone who's of that similar a frequency as you, who will want to stay home when you want to stay home, who will want to do the same things as you at the same time, who will know what you're thinking because he'll be thinking the same things, I think that's more than anyone can ask for.

Another thing is, don't you think lies are so horrible? They make you believe in things that aren't true, do you know how scary it is to believe in things that are not true, huh? HUH? No? Isn't it scary if I keep saying, I believe in Sandy, I believe in Sandy, I believe in Sandy...

That's beside the point.

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Reflective post. OMG I CAN SEE MYSELF.

Alright it's so late. I'm totally home alone tomorrow. Plans out are cancelled because tonsillitis are tony-annoying. Mahjong/DVDs/watch me die at my house tomorrow anyone?

10:28:00 PM because I say so

I always thought it's just a throat inflammation, although I found it a little weird because the last fried thing I ate was I-can't-even-remember-when. ._. Today I woke up feeling like Jiahao's head is on my body. My, I never knew he has it that tough. Now I know how it feels like to have a heavy head. What's worst is I lost my voice completely, I can't even qualify for Ah Du or Aaron Kwok. And each time I swallow my saliva I felt like Jigsaw is jabbing a surgical knife down my throat.

So I went to see another doctor, which is next door to the doctor I saw on Tuesday. He's the better doctor so to speak because the medicine he prescribes works wonders, and I would have gone to him first if not because the prices are so so high. He told me I've got a very bad case of tonsillitis, and I wanted to laugh because tonsillitis sounded funny. But no laughter came out and I choked instead. ._. Anyway, I wanted to ask him what's tonsillitis but he can't hear me. I had to tap the table and lean forward and say with all my mighty might, what's that. To which he replied what's what? and I decided to forget it. ._.

So I came home and googled tonsils and found tonsillitis and found out it just means infection in the tonsils, caused by bacteria, virus etc. I couldn't get past the second paragraph because I still think tonsillitis sounds funny.

Anyway, the doctor gave me another two days MC and told me to drink more water, rest more and don't raise my voice. Which is funny because the last time I raised my voice was I-can't-even-remember-when. He gave me more antibiotics, some medicine for the fever, lozenges, and this bottle of thing for me to gurgle.

Which is the whole point of my post because THAT THING IS SO DAMN GROSS. It's called chlorohexidine. C22H30Cl2N10. And it's a chemical most commonly used in mouth wash, like Listerine, or Oral-B. But what he gave me was pure chlorohexidine, without the fresh minty taste ogay. It's DAMN GROSS LAH. The aftertaste in your mouth is like a mixture of acid and alcohol (ester! Right? ._.) and contact lens solution and bittergourd LOL okay I don't know how to describe it. It's just very gross.

And you know what! It cost me $49. D: As in, the total cost lah. Not just the chlorohexidine. On Tuesday, the lousy medicine that didn't work cost me $23. Why medicine so expensive. D:

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Meh.

The happy thing is the cute antibiotic I got on Tuesday? I guess I don't have to finish it now that I'm on another course of antibiotics. :)

10:39:00 AM because I say so

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I updated a dead class blog!

12:18:00 PM because I say so

YES I'm finally blogging after a week.

Uh.

Byebye!

Oh, a picture of my really cute antibiotic!



It's purple and beige, I can't bear to eat it! :(

I took near 2hours to complete this post, while multi-tasking a mountain of other things. ._.

8:46:00 PM because I say so

is a really good movie. Nope I haven't finished watching it yet, I only watched like 1hr40mins of the 2hrs40mins show but I love it! I love the plot, the setting the whole cinematography everything. And I think Brad Pitt is great as Benjamin, I don't know why Sokmui doesn't like him.

In any case, I've decided to not finish the movie because I'm watching it again in the cinema probably some time next week with Aaron and probably Hanhui, if he doesn't have to stay at Kino.

TCCBB is one of the very few movies that leaves an impact, I think. The other one is of course The Diving Bell and the Butterfly that you always hear me talking about. Serious, I can't find a single fault in that movie, and too many parts make me tear. What's amazing about Bell is you won't get carried away by the movie. At the end of it all, you'll be thinking and reflecting about yourself. It's that impactful.

Oh, and recently I watched V for Vendetta, a 2005 movie and I like the movie although I don't know why. It's a pretty lame plot, abit like Orwell's 1984, except they make it England. So you're supposed to think the government of England is evil and nasty. Too far-fetched, but I still think the movie's good. It's a really long movie though, and the ending, although happy, is sloppy. Like, the bad guy died and that's that.

It's almost 10pm and I'm very tempted to finish watching TCCBB.

9:30:00 PM because I say so