Who can explain why is it that sometimes you don't have to say anything yet someone knows everything on your mind? It's almost like there's thoughts written over the face. But there isn't. It's just that the person knows you well enough to know what you'll think, even without looking at you or hearing what you've to say. Scary isn't it. It's like having someone to narrate your thoughts out, the way they always do in movies.

But then. There's a huge problem with that because too many times assumptions have gone wrong. They think they know you well enough to know what you'll think, they think that frown means something, that flicker in the eye means another. They think it's as easy as that.

Ha. Nevermind.

Sometimes, when I get bored and people-watch, like just watching; it's really interesting you know. Anyway, after people-watching for a long time, you realise how complicated people can be. We don't always say what we think, or we say only part of what we think, depending on the situation we're in. And it seems perfectly justified for you even though someone else doesn't think so. Like you think it's perfectly alright to do something, even if you know someone else may not like it if he knows. But that's the whole point. He doesn't know, so it's alright to do what you want, as long as it's kept under wraps. It won't matter. Or will it?

It's hard to trust people, harder to trust those who lied before, extremely hard to trust those whose lies hurt.

Whenever I hear from others what you've done, what you've told them, I find it a little harder to trust you already.

You're probably thinking, okay barney, what's she talking about now, is she talking about me, have I done anything recently, could I have done anything, could someone have told her something, could what I've done be known already, so she knows, so what happens next, what can she do, she can't do anything can she, I'm her friend.

I hate it when someone comes round, ask you for your trust, and after getting it, shreds it behind you, and then turn round and say "Hey buddy, we're best friends."

Sometimes, when I hear people badmouthing others behind their backs, I don't know what to say. Sometimes I agree with them, sometimes I don't. So if you agree with them, you're gossiping. Plus if you're friendly to the person you were talking about, that's two facer, backstabber, whatever. So if you don't agree with them, and you keep quiet, they suspect you'll tell the person what they were saying. So you're wrong either way. And they're right, supposedly. Whatever.

Anyway, my point is, I can't stand how some people can seem extremely friendly and happy and alright and (all the nice terms) to somebody, and then turn around and talk all the worst things about the same person when he/she's not around. It just sucks.

I know some things can't be told straight to the person. I know. But it can't be to the extent where every other thing you say about the person is bad. And yet in front of him/her you're extremely chummy. Have you ever considered what I will think of you?

So if you think I'm talking about you, go ahead. I probably wasn't, but the fact that you think I am goes to show something already.

Tch.

Sometimes the things you do make me really want to despise you, really. If you can't pull off being ONE person, you can at least try being humane.

Doubt the intended person understood anything anyway.

6:36:00 PM because I say so